Virat didn't
know whether to scream his lungs out or cry his heart out. There was turmoil of
emotions within him, despite knowing the intentions behind her action; his
heart refuses to accept the reality. He knows that her actions were justified
from her viewpoint and nothing precedes her Di in this world but at the same
time, nothing takes precedence over her when it comes to him. He knew that as
days pass, he was becoming more vulnerable towards his fear of losing Manvi. He
is unable to remain stoic and Manvi never fails to notice it. Virat followed
the trails of his leg aimlessly, he was in verge of breaking and all attempts
to get a grip of him were in vain. His eyes grew wider and his expression
hardened as he saw the sight in front of his eyes. He couldn't believe that he
trailed back to the very same spot that he was at earlier in the morning with
Manvi; the mandir. Unlike earlier, now there was no more anger left in him; in
fact there was nothing left in him. Neither anger nor despair, he felt as if there
was only vacuity within him. He felt his legs weakening and he fell on his
knees before Him. "I don't understand you or your game plan. Why do you
have to prove your existence by making the possible to impossible and
impossible to possible? But I must say that you are indeed the master of your
game; because you have struck the very chord which instantly brought me to your
feet helplessly. Something that you failed to achieve when you took my dad
away, my passion away, my career away, my future away. All those only manage to
dispirit me yet not my pride. Today you are staking my most valued possession,
something that means more than my life, mera pyar, mera jaan, mera dhadkan,
mera Manvi... I would gamble my life with you not hers and if my defeat is what
makes you happy, then here I'm...The same Virat Vandhera who never bowed to you
even at his worst time is now right in front of you begging for his love. I can
withstand if you snatch everything that I own including my life but not my
Manvi. I'm nothing without her...Please give me back my love" Virat
finally broke down in front of Him.
Viren and Jeevika decided to inform the rest of the family on
the news about Jeevika being Manvi's donor. Viren wanted to do it himself as he
wasn't sure of the response of his family and he didn't want Jeevika to be
troubled by their reaction but she was adamant to be with him. They slowly
walked to the living room where the rest of the family was discussing about
their day after dinner. Jeevika clutched Viren's hand as they neared. There was
an unknown fear; the fear of rejection from the family twitching knots in her
stomach. Despite the full support from her husband, she was worried of the
acceptance of the rest of the family members especially Dadaji and Swamini bua.
Viren understood his wife's predicament and assured her, "Everything will
be fine Jeevika. Main hoon na". Swamini bua was delighted to see Viren and
Jeevika joining them in their evening chat, something that was missing in the
family off late. Dadaji inquired about Manvi after Viren and Jeevika settled on
the couch; "Jeevika beta, Manvi ki tabiat ab kaise hai?" Dadaji's
question finally gave them opening that both were waiting to break the news.
"Well Dadaji, there has been vast progress in Manvi's health and we have
another good news to share about it. Finally Dr Shashank has found the suitable
bone marrow donor for Manvi and if everything turns out well, her bone marrow
treatment will begin soon." Viren finally announced the news to the entire
family. There was a sign of relieve in everyone's face, "Yeh to bahut ache
baat hai. We have all been praying for Manvi's recovery and this is a positive
sign beta." Dadaji replied in joy. "Haan babuji, I totally agree with
you." Swamini bua added. "Viren beta, make sure all the necessary
arrangement are made. Please ensure the donor is all comfortable and no
inconvenience is caused to the donor and family" Dadaji instructed. Viren
took a deep sigh and replied, "Usko koi zarurat nahi Dadaji. Woh donor aur
koi nahi; woh donor Jeevika tah" Viren finally revealed the truth.
Grimness overshadowed everyone's expression when they heard the truth as if it
was almost impossible to churn the truth that they heard. The vestige of doubts
slowly faded as Viren explained the procedure details to his family. Jeevika
remained quiet yet she didn't fail to study everyone's expression including
Swamini bua's. Everyone seemed to be almost convinced except for bua, her
doubts and disagreement was evident in her eyes although she hasn't expressed
them. Dadaji who seemed averse initially seem to see the rationale behind her husband's
explanation. Neither did he object nor did he give his concern.
The whole living room was enveloped in silence, nobody dared
to express their opinion before Dadaji. The silence was torturing for Jeevika
and somehow bothered her slightly. "How can one expect a stranger to
volunteer to be a donor when her own family doesn't support it" she
thought to herself. Unable to endure it any longer, she finally broke the
silence startling everyone including Viren. "Dadaji, Buaji I can
understand your concerns regarding my decision to be Manvi's donor but I just
need your empathy; to understand my decision" Jeevika spoke. "But
Jeevika, don't you think that you are being too compulsive in your actions and
decisions whenever it revolves around Manvi? Don't you think that your love for
your sister is overshadowing your responsibilities as the bahu of this house?
" Swamini questioned Jeevika. "I can't deny the fact that I have
neglected my responsibilities as a wife and bahu yet no one showed any resentment
towards me and I know that a mere apology will not do justice for it. When
Dadaji asked me whether my decisions in life will be based on love or
responsibility back in Mussoorie, I assured him that my responsibility will
precede love in my life. Even today, my decision still abides to my assurance
that I gave; responsibility. My responsibility as a sister over her dying
sister; a responsibility that was bestowed by God the day Manvi was born as my
sister. I'm fulfilling my promise that I made to my parents on their deathbed,
my vouch to protect Mannu when I accepted her Rakhi. I don't mean to be rude
but even if the procedure was dangerous, I would have still insisted on being a
donor because if I didn't die while saving Mannu; I would definitely die out of
the guilt of not trying to save her when I had a chance." tears choked her
as she spoke. Viren held Jeevika's shoulders in support; his family was
dumbstruck as they witnessed the other side of Jeevika that only he and Virat
have seen.
"Badi Ma, for once I have to disagree with you about
Jeevika neglecting her duties as a wife. Even in the midst of Manvi's illness,
she never once failed to attend to my needs. Even if she did, I wouldn't
complaint as I never expected Jeevika to sever all her responsibilities at her
maternal and devote herself to me just because she is married to me. In fact, I
really wonder whether I would be able juggle my responsibilities if I was in
her shoes. If it was Virat or myself in Manvi's place, will we still be having
this conversation?" Viren stepped in for Jeevika which took Swamini off
guard. "Viren, my concern is not about impartiality between Manvi and the
rest but a major decision is taken without even consulting us. This is not the
norm in Vandhera house and you should have known this better than anyone
else." Swamini retorted. "Badi Ma, we don't have the luxury of time
to debate as this is a matter of life and death. With her recent health
complication, every minute counts. If ever anything happens to Manvi, we will be
losing more than mere life in our family" Viren explained with tinge of
irritation in his voice. "Swamini beta, the urgency of the issue precedes
the family norm. Furthermore, if Viren has no objection against Jeevika being a
donor; I don't see any reason for any of us to object it. The procedure deemed
safe and the Manvi's recovery is what matters the most." Dadaji tried to
assure Swamini but she was still not swayed and left in annoyance.
"Jeevika beta, Swamini koh bura mat sochana. She has been a woman of
principle and never bends it for anyone. Give her time and she will understand
you" Dadaji comforted Jeevika. "Dadaji, I totally understand Buaji's
feelings and reaction. She has always wanted the best for the family and
especially for Virenji, and we all know that she will not tolerate anything
that may jeopardize it. She is in the same shoes as me, I will go any extend to
ensure Manvi is fine and I believe Buaji will also go to the same extend for
Virenji's happiness." Jeevika replied. Swamini's anger vanished when she
overheard Jeevika's reply. Tears escaped from her eyes after years as she
slowly walked into her room, she realized that she could have never found a
better bahu for the family besides Jeevika.
Virat found himself breaking down, pouring his heart out and
confessing his deepest fear at place that he least expected; in front of Him in
his Mandir. Virat felt calmed and light; although this didn't change his
perception on Him but it definitely made a positive step towards rebuilding his
trust. His love has brought twists that he least expected in his life, he
wondered what else will he being doing for his Bandariya. The word Bandariya
struck him that he walked out of Manvi in anger, he immediately rushed back to
her room. He cursed himself for losing his temper at her despite knowing her
condition. Virat slowly opened her room door, not wanting to wake her as it way
past her bedtime. Her room lights were still on, he guessed that she must have
fallen asleep while surfing since the notebook was still on next to her. He
slowly moved the notebook away and was about to shut it down when he realized
that the slideshow of their photos were playing. His lips curved into smile as
he saw their photos, his priceless collection of their most precious moments
together. He has managed to capture so many candid shots of her and it always
irked her whenever he clicked her pictures without her concern; she has always
wanted to look good while he always wanted the moments behind it. He was about
to tuck her to bed properly when he realize that she was clutching something
close to her heart. He slowly removed her grip on the metal frame expecting to
see picture of her with Bhabhi but was surprised to find a portrait of both of
them taken during bhabi & bhai's engagement.
"Virat'. " she murmured in her sleep the moment she
felt the frame slipping away from her hands . "Shhh'. I'm here Manvi. Ab
soh jao" Virat whispered as he caressed her hair, coaxing her to sleep.
His voice immediately woke Manvi from her sleep and she held his hand tightly.
"Kya hua Manvi? Koi bura sapna dheeka?" Virat was alarmed by her
reaction. "Kaha ho tum? You know how long I waited for you to return. You
know that I don't sleep without seeing you and yet you left me alone!" Manvi
sobbed like a child between her anger. Virat pulled her into his arms, wrapping
her into his hug. "I'm sorry Manvi. I didn't mean too' Sorry
partner, I'm really sorry" Virat apologized. They were cozy in each
other's arms for a long time; comforting each other in silence. "Virat'
" Manvi finally broke the silence between them. "Hmm Manvi'
Bolo" Virat replied. "I'm sorry Virat' I also need you to promise me
something?" Manvi asked. "Sorry kyu aur kaisa promise Manvi?" he
asked hesitantly. "No matter how much we fight or argue, no matter how
angry we are at each other, we should resolve it by end of the day. Don't
deprive me of seeing the love in your eyes when you kiss me good night and the
smile in face when you wish me good morning. I never thought that I will be
saying this to anyone else besides Di but I can't live without you Virat. Can
you promise me that Virat? Please'." Manvi asked him.
Manvi's words pierced him, instead of being with her at the
moment she needed his support; he let his anger and emotions overrule him
again. He was responsible for her tears today, yet she was apologizing to him.
His guilt, rolled out as tears from him and Virat held her closer for support.
Manvi sensed Virat's repentance so she hugged him back, stroked his back to
comfort him, to relieve him from his guilt instead of urging him for answer. He
finally got a grip of himself, took a deep breath and slowly broke away from
her hug, met her gaze and gave her the assurance that he is ok before he spoke.
"Manvi, I owe you a few apologies" he started. She tried to shush him
but he stopped her. "Manvi, please don't stop me" he insisted.
"Manvi, Sorry for losing my temper on several occasions today. The fear of
losing you has grown so much that even the slightest indication of it just
agitates me. Whenever our priorities cross, my possessiveness over you precedes
my logical mind to think. I promised you that I will be with you throughout
this battle and today I will reassure that I will stand by your decision
whatever it is. Bhabhi and I can force the treatment on you but I know that the
whole procedure will go futile if your mind is not in it. I'm sorry Manvi, I'm
really sorry yaar" he apologized.
Manvi cupped his face in her palms, "Virat, you don't
need to be sorry or guilty of your actions. We were both impulsive in our
actions and blinded by our love. It is alright to be angry and shout our lungs
out at each other and get over it once and for all. What I can't stand is when
it prolongs. I didn't mean to hurt you or make you guilty but I just want
you to know that I love you as much as I love Di. Just like how I can't
withstand Di being sad or angry, I also can't stand your pain or anger Virat
"she explained to Virat. "I love you too Manvi. I promise you that no
matter what happens between us, no matter how much we fight and argue; before
the stroke of midnight, we will make up in each other's arms just like this.
Mere kasam Manvi" Virat promised her and kissed her forehead. She finally
saw a genuine smile on his face and that was enough to bring back her
smile. "Listen Manvi, it has been a long day for both of us, now be
a good girl and get back to sleep." Virat instructed Manvi. "Virat, I
want to be in your arms tonight'. Please don't say NO partner" she made
puppy face and begged him. It was almost impossible for Virat to deny her
request; even he didn't feel like letting her off as well. "Your wish is
my command Madam'" he smirked while making her comfortable on the bed as
she rested her head on his chest and he settled next to her.
"Virat, you haven't told me where were you all this
while? " she asked him as he tried to make her sleep. "Make a wild
guess" he challenged her. "Hmmm let me see, our favorite spot in the
garden?" she guessed. "I anticipated that from you but unfortunately
you are wrong." He replied her. "But you always go there whenever you
are angry or sad!" she argued. "Yes Manvi, that's where I always end
up but not today. Somehow I ended up at the place that I least expected to
be." He replied building the suspense. "Virat, stop the puzzle, tell
me where were you?" she demanded unable to tolerate the suspense.
"The very same place we were together in the morning, in the Mandir. I had
a long session with your Bhagawanji. Not the friendly wala like yours, but it
was more matured and serious discussion" he revealed. Manvi was elated as
she heard Virat narrate his story. "See I told you nah, Bhagawanji
will always listen to me "she exclaimed happily. Virat silently
hoped that He will fulfill his one and only request.
Dr Shashank came earlier than usual to check on Manvi, he saw
Virat and Manvi were engaged in serious discussion as he entered. "Sorry
to interrupt both of you, but I decided to check on Manvi earlier today and
also to discuss about her treatment as well" Dr Shashank explained.
"Actually Dr Shashank, even I wanted to discuss with you about the
treatment. In fact, I wanted to discuss about it without Di's presence as
well" Manvi replied. Virat decided to leave so that Manvi can discuss her
concerns freely with Dr Shashank , he didn't want her decision to be influenced
by his reaction. Manvi held Virat's hand as she saw him moving away from her.
"Virat, I wanted to discuss without Di's presence not yours. I want you to
be here with me" she requested. Virat briefly nodded and sat next to her.
Manvi took a deep breath, held his hand for support and finally spoke "Dr
Shashank, I have read about the treatment and procedure yesterday. I may not
understand the full details on it but it did give me some insides of the whole
process. I'm ready for the treatment but I have a small request as well. I hope
you could really consider it." Manvi explained. "What kind of request
Manvi?" Dr Shashank asked her. "Well I know that there are two
options to the treatment, either to perform the bone marrow transplant or
PBSCT. Although Di will be under anesthesia but I have experienced the pain of
bone marrow extraction. I definitely don't want anyone to go through such
excruciating pain in their life and definitely not Di. Could we just opt for
PBSCT instead Dr?" she finally explained her request. Dr Shashank smiled
and replied her" Manvi, I have seen so many patients in my service but
never once anyone close to you. Even at the most critical stage, your concern
for others are greater than the pain that you are going thru. Now coming to
your request, well even I have PBSCT in my mind. Firstly, your body is still
weak and I don't think it will be able to withstand the bone marrow transplant
operation. The PBSCT will be the best option in your case because we can
actually monitor your body acceptance to the treatment." Dr
Shashank's explanation cleared all her doubts and she felt relieved. "Well
in that case, I shall speak to Jeevika and Viren about her preparation for the
treatment today. If everything turns well, we can start Jeevika's treatment
tomorrow." Dr Shashank informed Manvi. She nodded in acknowledgement.
"Manvi, don't worry. You have been a great fighter and this is the final
round. Be positive and both of you and Jeevika will be fine. Very soon you will
be walking out of this hospital in perfect health" he assured Manvi just
before leaving.
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